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This Lady’s One-Person Intrafaith Shop

November 11, 2013

Warning: dangerous levels of abstraction lie ahead, along with poorly-photographed drawings.  

Recently, I found myself needing to visualize the paths people take when it comes to their faith. So much so, that I took out a pen and paper.

Here is what the path of a single-tracked holy person may look like, whether they are Sufi shaykhs, rabbis, swamis, or shamans:

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Figure I: The “monogamist” model of faith.

If you are a deeply religious person and/or know very devout people, you might have noticed that such individuals’ beliefs are hardly ever static. Their progression through their religious journey isn’t stagnant; they deepen. Muslim alims, for instance, may read the same verses in the Quran in dozens of different ways. Buddhist monks spend their entire lives in deep meditation. The further they go, the greater their realization of how infinite the universe is.

This monogamist path has the potential for union with the Divine through  increasing self-realization by means of a (mostly) established framework. It’s a model that most people are most familiar with and most religious people aspire to.

Now, here is the path of a very different scenario, one in which the traveller journeys through two or more different belief systems. Each point in the constellation represents a state of rest within a mode of faith, a point that, upon a closer look, may constitute some of the inward intensity I showed in Figure I. I see this model as the opposite the monogamist model and call it the polyamorous model of faith.

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Figure II. The “serial monogamist”/”polyamorous” model of faith.

As the traveller goes from one belief system to another, perhaps they ultimately realize that they all lead to the same Truth.

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Figure III. The polyamorous-and-yet-ultimately-monogamist model of faith.

And it is in this that they find bliss, mercy, release, nirvana. In doing this, they start out as “polyamorous” journeyers, but then, in a way, become monogamists in reference to the entire framework. (Aside: It is a possibility like this that puts me in awe of the manifestations tawhid can take. Things appear to exist separately, but are truly One.)

Now that I’ve presented those two models, here is what the visualization of my journey may looked like.

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Figure IV. What my journey looked like during December 2012.

 When I first started as a devout (and Sunni) Muslim, I started on that inward spiral. Sometimes the path halted, when I found myself looking towards resources (primarily people) to inspire me and provide me fuel to continue. That point in the middle, where the black spiral ends—that is where I felt like I simply could not go any further. I went as far as I could, with my existing framework.

And then, about a year ago, I let go. It was only then that my path continued, in a way I could have never anticipated.

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Figure V. My journey up to a couple of months ago.

It veered to the outside of the centre, but not completely. It deepened and darkened the outline of that centre, and then started tracing lines dow my earlier paths

This continuation, for me, was Shia Islam.

In worldly definitions, it is called a sect of Islam. For me, it was a saving grace that made me reaffirm my deen.

I tell this story much later. I have—for lack of a better way to put it—moved on from Shi’ism. Now my journey has veered away from the center. Like petals of a flower, I reach outward. And then, by force of that centre’s gravity, I get drawn back in.

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Figure VI. Where I stand today.

At heart, I am a spiritual monogamist. (And in case you are wildly curious, I’m a monogamist when it comes to romantic relationships as well.) But to survive in these strange times, I have to have little tastes, explorations, of other beliefs in order to continue on my own.

Here is what I have come to realize:

  • That centre may not have had such a stronghold if it didn’t become strong by a different means. A system that was my own, but not quite.
  • True-blooded intrafaith and interfaith work happen as miracles, sometimes requiring no more than one person and a loving, brilliant God who says, “Okay, let’s throw something else at her.”

This Muharram, I think back to this journey and will share the intrafaith reflections I derived from it (from the Sunni vantage point). I do so out of the deep love and respect I have developed for the Shi’i tradition and the timeliness of this sacred month, a month that we all must observe as a time of sobriety and reflection on where we went wrong as an Ummah.

Perhaps this could be a month to think about our shared humanity not just with all other Muslims, but the rest of humankind. Our journeys in respect to belief may be very different. But if done in earnestness and and open heart, they can be equally glorious. Sharing and learning from each other, and seeing where the paths intersect, open miraculously infinite possibilities in mental models.

That is how I have realized that I have so much to live for. Even if I will never fully belong in any one community of faith.

Note: A big, loving thanks to my closest companion Sara Isis Mikaal for the amazing discussions that lead to this post. Our paths are extremely different, and yet they blissfully intersect, over and over, in ways that only the ultimate Artist can depict.  

 

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6 Comments leave one →
  1. November 11, 2013 1:22 pm

    I just started reading your blog. (*waves hello*)… I am not Muslim but interested in learning about the faith… and I loved this post. It reminded me of my meandering path… first told I was Christian…but not really feeling like it… then decided I was atheist… then studying random pagan things… back to atheist… then agnostic… and studying Buddhism…and now interested in Islam…but still on the fence of … is there really anything out there anyway?

    I love Buddhism and meditation… but I do not think I need to drop one to be something else..I believe I can take something from everywhere…but I’ve been told that is not true. Why should it matter? So my journey is all over the place… This post has inspired me to draw my own little journey… thank you! I do have a question though…and perhaps it’s in your archives… Were you always a Muslim? How did you come to Islam? You can point me to a blog post if there is one.

    Thank you!

    • November 11, 2013 1:29 pm

      Welcome, Christy, and thanks so much for your comment! As I was drawing those “journeys” I realized I wasn’t doing justice to those who practiced more than one faith at one time…I was a little simplistic in showing them as just ending one thing and starting another. But I am glad it resonated with you! Indeed, we don’t need to drop one thing to be something else.

      I was actually born a Muslim, but my experience of Islam has changed considerably over the years. I would point you to a single post if I could, but truth be told this entire blog is a testament to that “growing within Islam” journey 🙂

  2. November 11, 2013 5:38 pm

    So a friend with whom i have been sitting in meditation for more than ten years recently created this web-site Sarah. You might enjoy it. http://www.Silentmeditationtoday.com and i think I gave you my mine, which i just finished after eight months work. Best wishes. Bill.

    • November 24, 2013 11:29 am

      This looks quite interesting; thank you Bill. I hope the new project has been treating you supremely well.

  3. Nahida permalink
    November 12, 2013 4:11 am

    Hi Sarah, I’m one of those- I read your blogs silently and scuttle away silently. This post made me smile a lot. I was born a Muslim, I tried Catholicism, Hinduism, Sikhism, shaffi, Hanafi, Sufi…amongst others before I finally felt I loved the rituals and peace I got from being a Muslim. What I detested most was the misunderstanding and perhaps it is what made me want to seek out what else is out there rather than just being born into a religion and following without questioning it. What I still cannot come to terms with is our “what box do you fit in” . At five, after stopping me and saying how cute i am and what my name is, they asked me what are you? Shia or Sunni? I was scared I wasn’t “right” or that i would come across wrong & be in trouble so I simply answered I am a Muslim. Because that was the truth I knew then. And as I grow older and reflect inward and upward, I realise that is what I am, a Muslim, a human being that can sympathise with others regardless of faith, race or status. I was told I look Shia and when I said I am not, I got a reply- “shame”. I have taken it upon myself to stick to being true to who I am, and I still don’t believe in being Sunni or Shia. Perhaps this is the part of my journey I am still discovering but I am finally happy being me and striving to achieve a better ‘me’. So thank you for your diagrams… It reminded me of where I am and where I would like to be… Tho’ mine is more erratic. Like a bunny on speed 😉 or like the constellation… Thank you for sharing your thoughts xx

    • November 24, 2013 11:28 am

      Bunny on speed..haha! love it! Although I do not love the idea that one can “look” Shia.

      And thanks so much for your comment. I love knowing that I have the kind of readers I envision. All the best on your journey!

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